This is not what I planned to write this week. I planned to write it sometime in the very safe future when everything was prepared and under control. You know that future, the one where hot fudge sundaes are good for you and lemon drops grow on trees.
When I went to my Living School intensive in Albuquerque in June, I learned, among other things, that my writing can be a help in the world. This is probably not a news flash to anyone except me. I know and am grateful that some people find this blog useful, but I never thought of it as service, not like working in a soup kitchen or a prison.
So I decided to gather some of these posts into a book and put it out into the world in some as yet undecided format. I need to give a shout out to Delores, who has been telling me to do this for years and without whose encouragement I might never have considered it, and Bardwell, who suggested it more recently.
It’s interestingly terrifying to tell you I plan to write this book for two reasons: First, you might ask how it’s going at a time when it’s not going at all. Second, there is something revelatory—that is, self-revealing—about claiming to be the one who best knows my form of service in the world and that I know it’s this deep part of me. As David Whyte says in his poem “Revelation Must Be Terrible,”
…revelation must be terrible
knowing you can
never hide your voice again.
A teacher of mine once said that completely different intentions can look the same externally. I used to write to prove myself. Now I’m beginning to see that I can choose to write to be myself, and being our true selves—not our small, accomplishment-driven selves—is not only all that’s asked of us but also all that’s needed.
I would love to have your help in the collection process. If there’s a post you particularly like or a topic you think is important to include, leave a comment or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. There’s a schnazzy new search box in the upper right to help with this endeavor.
Thank you for reading, for your support over the years, for knowing me better than I know myself, and for any suggestions you may have.
6 thoughts on “A Gathering”
Terrific idea, Rachel. Look forward to getting the finished product. I especially like the posts where you mention your mom, dad and sis 🙂
This brings me intense happiness and tears to my eyes. Never hide your voice again, Amen! Congrats! I will have to look back through the posts, but I’ll probably want you to include them all. : )
I *love* this idea!!
Great idea, Rachel. Among recent posts, I especially like “I’m Here”, about being present in the moment. It’s so easy to forget this.
YAY!!! Blessings and congratulations on the courageous idea!! Some people have encouraged me to do something similar, but I just have mixed feelings about it. I am interested in how your process goes, so please keep me posted. 🙂 And, YES, you are totally doing great service for others!